[hahaha oh no. his ears twitch, and for a few moments he can't quite figure out what to say-- feels a little lightheaded, at the thought. they've known each other very little time, comparatively, if they weren't dead they'd have different lifespans-- he's just learned thancred died of a heart attack, of all things, entirely too young. could just die of one within another year or two even if he gets out of hell.
all he can think about is going through everything all over again. getting too close and experiencing all of that loss again. he feels, he thinks, like he's forgotten how to breathe.]
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[hahaha oh no. his ears twitch, and for a few moments he can't quite figure out what to say-- feels a little lightheaded, at the thought. they've known each other very little time, comparatively, if they weren't dead they'd have different lifespans-- he's just learned thancred died of a heart attack, of all things, entirely too young. could just die of one within another year or two even if he gets out of hell.
all he can think about is going through everything all over again. getting too close and experiencing all of that loss again. he feels, he thinks, like he's forgotten how to breathe.]