-I don't know.

[it's the most honest answer he can really give, as much as it isn't a full answer at all. ]

I want you to be here, I suppose. [is where he starts, slightly hesitant, piecing the words together as he goes.] And if we could manage it, I'd like you to be here after, but I don't know what to do with things like-- you saying you don't know if you'd want to live longer than is natural for you, or the idea of being in your home without you there.