[it's as scary, either way. one relies on less connection, but that doesn't necessarily make it better, easier. he's just as unsure of what to do with someone caring about him, in whichever form.]
...but I don't generally make a habit of-- wondering these things. I liked my life. I liked the way it was, before we studied the Void, before they exiled us from our home for it-- I'd just gotten used to life as it was after.
Spend enough time around Y'shtola, and the notion of tackling the impossible simply for the sake of proving it can be done becomes commonplace. I suppose I'm simply used to it.
[before they exiled us from our home for it, Ryn remarks offhandedly, and Thancred quietly files that painful revelation away for some other time.]
Then answer for me your own question, from before. How do you see it all playing out, should we both earn a second chance at life?
[surprise! he's just packed full of fun new little traumas like that.]
I suppose... I'd return to mine, and to the rest of the ren'dorei. Hope that what happened to me when I died doesn't stick and I don't just come back as a pawn of the void lords. You'd return to yours and the people you care for, either find a way to treat your ailing heart or just live whatever life you have left.
And if we could still reach each other, in some way, I imagine we might still speak, up until we didn't. Until you were gone again. I'd give it a handful of years if you don't take care of what killed you, maybe less.
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[it's as scary, either way. one relies on less connection, but that doesn't necessarily make it better, easier. he's just as unsure of what to do with someone caring about him, in whichever form.]
...but I don't generally make a habit of-- wondering these things. I liked my life. I liked the way it was, before we studied the Void, before they exiled us from our home for it-- I'd just gotten used to life as it was after.
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[before they exiled us from our home for it, Ryn remarks offhandedly, and Thancred quietly files that painful revelation away for some other time.]
Then answer for me your own question, from before. How do you see it all playing out, should we both earn a second chance at life?
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I suppose... I'd return to mine, and to the rest of the ren'dorei. Hope that what happened to me when I died doesn't stick and I don't just come back as a pawn of the void lords. You'd return to yours and the people you care for, either find a way to treat your ailing heart or just live whatever life you have left.
And if we could still reach each other, in some way, I imagine we might still speak, up until we didn't. Until you were gone again. I'd give it a handful of years if you don't take care of what killed you, maybe less.
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[He'll get back to the other stuff in a minute, but.]
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[he's not mentioning the self sacrificial tendency, even.]