We’ve been losing people weekly, and it’s all sucked. But this one really sucked. Maybe that’s shit of me to be more down about one case than another, but that’s just life I guess.
[ you can be sad about what’s been happening, and then you can be Sad when it hits you too personally. i say like he wasn’t an alpaca like two hours ago, fighting a sci-fi sugar daddy. ]
It's natural to be closer to some than others. I didn't know the kid, I was almost more-- concerned someone had tried to pick off a weak target. Worried about who might have decided to kill him specifically.
[he closes his eyes, shakes his head.]
...I still hate that Lavi died for it, even if there just wasn't a good option to take.
It can’t all be as clean cut as “wow, you sure chainsawed a woman death for— reasons I’m not sure I have the time to unpack right now”. The… concerns someone had gone for a weaker target just because were a bit more widespread, I think. But…
Yeah, I think that’s a pretty legitimate concern. Just because it doesn’t end someone’s entire existence doesn’t mean we should start a race to get there.
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If someone jumps the gun and decides it’s not a big deal anymore, they’re forgetting they’re taking that person’s chance to get out of here. Maybe that doesn’t matter to everyone, I know, but it’s still cruel.
It's cruelty no matter how you look at it. We're already dead, sure, but putting someone through it again?
[a shake of his head.]
...it just comes down to how badly they want to go back, I think. What they're willing to do to try to get there. We're in hell, Date, I'm sure plenty of us have killed before, I'm no exception.
Some people would argue it doesn't matter because we're already dead.
[ nothing about his body language suggests he agrees with that. ]
There are other ways to get to hell. But-- [ he shrugs. ] I don't disagree people must be desperate to get back. I have things I want to get back to. I'm not so big-headed as to assume I'm the only one -- I'm sure you do too.
Pretty sure most of us do. A few exceptions, yes, but-- I think overall, there'd be no point offering some sort of chance if enough of us weren't willing to take it.
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I don't know, I do miss talking to him.
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We’ve been losing people weekly, and it’s all sucked. But this one really sucked. Maybe that’s shit of me to be more down about one case than another, but that’s just life I guess.
[ you can be sad about what’s been happening, and then you can be Sad when it hits you too personally. i say like he wasn’t an alpaca like two hours ago, fighting a sci-fi sugar daddy. ]
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[he closes his eyes, shakes his head.]
...I still hate that Lavi died for it, even if there just wasn't a good option to take.
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It was just bad across the board.
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[he folds his arms on the bartop.]
...he's worried that letting us know they're still out there, somewhere, is going to make people more comfortable with killing.
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If someone jumps the gun and decides it’s not a big deal anymore, they’re forgetting they’re taking that person’s chance to get out of here. Maybe that doesn’t matter to everyone, I know, but it’s still cruel.
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[a shake of his head.]
...it just comes down to how badly they want to go back, I think. What they're willing to do to try to get there. We're in hell, Date, I'm sure plenty of us have killed before, I'm no exception.
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[ nothing about his body language suggests he agrees with that. ]
There are other ways to get to hell. But-- [ he shrugs. ] I don't disagree people must be desperate to get back. I have things I want to get back to. I'm not so big-headed as to assume I'm the only one -- I'm sure you do too.
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[ he doesn't like the sound of that ]
That's only bound to kickstart a series of events no one was going to be able to predict.